The Big 3-0

il_fullxfull_1188239041_pzkrI am turning 30 in exactly twenty five days.

(I’m not going to lie there is a large part of me that is kicking itself for not getting this post out five days earlier so I could have talked about my “Thirty Day Countdown to Thirty. Alas such are the perils of short sightedness and the art of missed opportunities!)

Twenty Five Days from now I will hit the big one, the big 3-0 and I honestly am feeling pretty ok about this.

Not thrilled, but also not devastated. You know, kind of ambivalent? Very meh?

Sure, I’m not “Thirty, Flirty, and Thriving” like Jennifer Garner always lead me to believe I would be and there are so many things I would change if I could, but I’m also fairly confident with my place in life. I’m better off than most and not as well off as others, and isn’t that just the perfect spot to be as a millennial?

Still, this Big Birthday does carry some significance and as such I feel the need to commemorate it with a list of some sort. Obviously. Though really it’s more of a rambly stream of thoughts than a traditional list … perhaps this is a sign of my advancing senility?

But I digress.

Without further ado I bring to you Dear Reader(s?) (Are there more than one of you left after my lengthy absence? Or is it just my Dad?) “Thoughts on Thirty”:

  1. I can finally play a teenager on TV. (Assuming I could act, which I can’t.)
  2. The above mentioned reference is clearly dated as actors in their early twenties now play teenagers and the early 90s practice of having really old people play kids a la ‘Saved By The Bell’ is a bit passé. This is yet another sign of my advanced age.
  3. Instead I can act as the love interest of Harrison Ford, Clint Eastwood, or any other aged film star past his prime. (Or at least I can for another two years; I think the cap on playing the love interest of a 60+ year old in Hollywood is 32. Better double check with Maggie Gyllenhaal.)
  4. In non-Hollywood related thoughts I can finally say a firm, all caps “NO” to going out on evenings and weekends without getting sucked into the FOMO lifestyle of twenty-something’s.
  5. In addition to point 4, I can finally make fun of FOMO out loud instead of just as part of my internal monologue.
  6. And Bae. Anyone who says Bae in my company is going to receive a disparaging glare and will earn my eternal ridicule. This really has nothing to do with turning thirty, I just hate abbreviations. Especially abbreviations that make me feel old. (My apologies to fellow bloggers who say “Bae, FOMO, totes, etc.” I still like you even if your posts make my brain bleed.)
  7. Which reminds me, is “On Point” still a thing? Like, is this Post On Point? I just have no idea anymore.
  8. But, in more positive news, turning thirty brings me one year closer to being debt-free – just another 276 years of paying the minimum payment on all of those credit cards to go and I’ll kick that sucker in no time!
  9. With the advancements of science and technology I may actually live to see those 276 years go by so I can celebrate my debt-free existence with an unnecessarily large and frivolous purchase that I cannot afford.
  10. Boxed wine is no longer acceptable. Instead spring for the $12 bottle and drink it like you understand a word the liquor store guy said about “tannins”.
  11. Can I drink this wine and toast to being unmarried? Does that make me independent and worldy?
  12. What if I cry into the glass and just tell my horrified friends that the salt in the tears brings out the tannins?
  13. Who needs marriage anyway?
  14. And how should I respond to the complete stranger telling me that my ovaries are dead? Is it considered rude to kick strangers in the genitals?
  15. What if I just carry around a bottle of baby vomit and a recording of a child crying and chase the perpetrator around with both until they sob uncontrollably and leave me alone?
  16. Can strangers tell I am bitter?
  17. Also, is thirty really the new twenty?
  18. And what does that even mean?

Full Disclosure: I originally wanted to write “Thirty Thoughts on Turning Thirty” but I really just don’t have that many thoughts about this whole thing. I can’t tell if that’s a good thing or not.

Perhaps it’s good that I am attempting to return to blogging, this gal clearly needs some practice on her introspection.



The Writer

“You must write every single day of your life. You must lurk in libraries and climb the stacks like ladders to sniff books like perfumes and wear books like hats upon your crazy heads. You must read dreadful dumb books and glorious books, and let them wrestle in beautiful fights inside your head, vulgar one moment, brilliant the next.” – Ray Bradbury (1920-2012)

I like to say things like “Impossibly Sad” and “Unbearably Happy”. What can I say? I have a love of dramatic wordplay (and romance novel clichéd phrases). There are just so many beautiful words in the English language and it seems a shame to only use one of them when several will do.

Not everyone shares my thoughts on this.

I am surrounded by people at work and in my personal life who think the responses “cool” and “yes” are sufficient when instead they could be saying “that sounds like a delightfully awesome experience” and “Yes! Of course! Absolutely!”

Alas, such is the downfall of being a writer.

This post, the very one you are reading right now (or skimming, if that’s how you roll) is my 150th post on triSARAHtops. I’m a huge fan of milestones, especially meaningless ones, which is why I have decided to celebrate tonight with a bottle of White Bear Riesling, a bag of ‘healthy’ chips, and by continuing to work on my book.

My book, you ask?!

Why yes, dear reader, I am writing a book!

It’s not a beautiful narrative or a best seller contender (well, I suppose it could be with the likes of ‘50 Shades of Grey’ crowding the best seller list why shouldn’t my book have a go? … Though I suppose I’d need to incorporate at least one spanking to be on par …) but it’s something I am having a ton of fun working on and really that’s all that matters.

As I get closer to my (self) publication date I will post more information for those of you who are interested in learning more (yes, Dad, I promise to let you know when the book is done). But for now, dear reader, this is all I am willing to say on the subject.

Now! On to more important things!

As I mentioned earlier, about 6 paragraphs ago, this is my 150th post. As such I had meant to write something witty and charming and oh so fabulous. Instead I am stuck with this exercise in stream of consciousness writing which I will likely regret almost immediately after hitting publish and start stressing that I have let down my 109 readers (109! YAY!).

But do not fret, dear reader! I will be back in my usual form soon with a few more posts on the Funny Side of (My) OCD as well as a few Valentines Themed posts including my favourite Valentine’s Day Memory (which also happens to be my second worst memory of all time).

Until then, thank you for reading (or skimming. Honestly, I don’t mind.)

With Love,